January is my birthday month. So in addition to having to worry about the New Year hoopla, resolutions and such - I actually get a whole year older right from the get go. I like to ease into things- through the back door- Not fair! This is a monumental birthday- the point of no return birthday- I'm half way through a decade! Yikes! My personal take is the half way years are much more difficult to swallow than the actual start of the new decade. Case in point- turning 30 or even 40 really wasn't that big of deal to me. It's once the "0" becomes a "1" and so on- that I start the palpitations. This will be year "45." How in the name of all that's holy did that happen? I don't feel feel "45." I feel this age-
I was 21 years old in this picture. I don't feel a bit different mentally. Will I feel "45" when I'm "65?" How does this aging stuff work? Alright, I will admit I do feel smarter and more sure of myself at this age. I guess that can only come with ("gulp...") aging. So I guess I need to get over myself and remember all the good stuff that comes with "seasoning." Truly- I'm happy with the direction my life is going. I try to not have any regrets. It's all about looking forward and surrounding myself with positive energy. And really- it's just a number, right? So, why does it feel so wrong?!